My typical negative stance on the "conversion story" doesn't only raise the ire of Roman Catholics, I've been in more than a few conversations with Protestant friends as well on this topic. I don't approve of conversion stories being used as apologetic tools, for the simple reason they are based on subjective experience. Someone else's experience is not the Gospel. God doesn't need the help of your "story" to evangelize. Often, if you boil down a "conversion story" it's simply a chance for a person to bring attention to themselves. People generally like talking about themselves (I include myself in this as well). I know one particular person who will launch into her "conversion story" at any minute, especially with a new acquaintance.
In the worship service, I don't approve of someone bringing attention to themselves and their "story"- I don't really care about their story. I want Christ's story. Some people hold that at baptism, it's good for the person to tell their "story"- I disagree. Perhaps it's because I'm embarrassed at the sins I've committed against Christ. When I bring them up... it's like reminding the person you love how awful you've been against them.
As to dramatic conversion stories, I believe that "dead in sin" is "dead in sin." Each person, before regeneration is equally dead in sin. God then raises a person to spiritual life. Some people aren't more "dead" than others because they were a worse sinner. This pops their "conversion story balloon." Suppose Christ called Lazarus to life from the tomb, along with another person who was a bit more sinful. Which person being called forth from the tomb has the more dramatic testimony? Neither! Both are equally miraculous.
One serious problem with conversion stories that many people overlook is that while a person may claim the name of Christ as the end result of their dramatic story, this might not be the end of their story. Consider the radical Black Panther Eldridge Cleaver. After some time in prison, Mr. Cleaver had a dramatic conversion to Christianity. He then went on to check out the Moonies, and lastly ended up a Mormon. Or for those you old folks like me, remember in the late 1970's and early 1980's, Mike Warnke? Sure, he was a really funny Christian comedian. He was the ex-Satanic high priest turned Christian. He toured everywhere telling his dramatic story. Well, Cornerstone Magazine investigated him and tore his story to shreds. Or consider the recent Ergun Caner debacle. Here's one that hit close to home: a few years back I met a nice guy on the Internet through Dr. White's chat channel. If I recall, he had converted to Roman Catholicism, and was even interviewed by Marcus Grodi. When I met him in the chat channel, he would private message me often to talk about Roman Catholicism. He even sent me his 340 page book that documented his departure from Romanism and Orthodoxy back to being a Baptist. Well, he eventually went back to Orthodoxy.
On a positive note, I have no problem with getting to know someone and hearing their "story". This is fine over a cup of coffee. But please, keep your "story" out of the spotlight. If you want to tell a "story"- tell Christ's story.
Main course: CTC Conversion Stories
In terms of using conversion stories as apologetic tools, Roman Catholicism is overrun with stories. If ever there was a group of people that like talking about themselves, it's Roman Catholic converts. I've earlier described these folks as theologians of glory. Their conversion stories are typically examples of achievement and glory. They in essence point to the abilities of a person and the supposed wisdom gained by crossing the Tiber. They do not point to Christ---they point to a triumphal entry into an allegedly magnificent human institution: the Roman Catholic Church. Their conversion stories are about what they did. They are about what wisdom and glory they achieved. This is not the foolishness of the cross.
I assumed that when I posted CTC Conversion Stories comments and criticism would follow. One blog post was brought to my attention: Heads I win, Tails you lose. First, believe it or not, I'm grateful that someone took the time to read something I wrote and comment on it, even if I don't agree with the content of the response. That being said, I offer the following as a counter-response.
1. The Roman Catholic blogger states, "So let me get this straight: Reformed conversion story = helpful retelling of true events. Catholic conversion story = Manipulation." What I wrote above as an appetizer should suffice. The majority of what's written above is not new material, but rather taken from the archives of this blog.
2. The Roman Catholic blogger states, "This website [CTC] is the reason I am Catholic. Not the only reason of course, but without it, I would not have converted. It is to me what tolle lege was to Saint Augustine. It is a very successful website in achieving its goal of bringing unity to Christians." This proves my point in my aomin entry: CTC often uses the "story" as the vehicle to entice you to look across the Tiber. CTC is does not have the goal of unifying Christians. Their goal is for Reformed people to abandon sola scriptura and sola fide and join with a sect that no longer is a true Christian church.
3.The Roman Catholic blogger states, "James Swan critiqued my letter explaining my family's conversion to my PCA congregation. I found the critique something like a year later by chance, which makes me think I wasnt really his intended audience)." It is correct that many of my blog entries are not invitations to dialog and debate. Rather, your story was used to illustrate double standards and basic errors in theological epistemology for the readers of the aomin blog, so that people can be made aware of similar fallacies used by those, like yourself, that deny Christ and the church.
4. The Roman Catholic blogger states, "What I find weird is that Mr. Swan seems to view the same activity of... telling a story... as either helpful or manipulating depending on -not the way its told or the content- but on whether he agrees with what the character in the story did." The topic in question is "conversion" story, not simply, "story." Roman Catholic conversion stories, from my perspective, are not a positive movement of the Holy Spirit in a person's life, therefore, as Paul warns (Gal. 1:8), "But even if we, or an angel from heaven, should preach to you a gospel contrary to what we have preached to you, he is to be accursed!"
5. The Roman Catholic blogger states, "It seems to me that according to Mr. Swan, if I were to recount the religious conversions in my life, that my describing becoming pentecostal would be manipulative on my part, describing my conversion to the Reformed faith was not manipulative, then describing conversion to Catholicism would, again, be obvious manipulation on my part. Isn't this the definition of Ad Hominem argumentation?" As stated above, one of my primary concerns is with the conversion story being used as an apologetic tool. If you put your story on the Internet as proof of the truth of Romanism, it should come as no surprise that those who disagree with Romanism will challenge the facts you put forth as well as the alleged benefits of your story.
6. The Roman Catholic blogger states, "Huh? So when the dice roll for the Reformed they are fair, but when they don't they must be loaded?" The experiences described by Mr. Lim in question were put forth as table-setters for the truth of Rome and the alleged errors of Reformed theology. The experiences related by Mr. Lim do indeed have cogent Reformed answers, but in terms of "fairness" these were not mentioned by Mr. Lim. Rather, the hero waiting in the distance was the Roman church.
7. In response to my comment, that Mr. Lim's recollections attempt to provoke one to question the validity of their own experience, the Roman Catholic blogger states, "What is wrong with this? This is how I came to faith in Christ, and later, this is how I came to be Reformed. Part of it was people telling me stories that made me question my experiences. "Maybe those things I have done are really sins after all?" "Maybe I was wrong to think otherwise?" "Maybe I need a saviour after all?" "Perhaps that gnawing feeling in my heart is my yearning for a saviour!" These are all questions we want people to ask themselves... to challenge the validity of their own experience! I guess not James Swan though."
This comment solidifies my point, and demonstrates a good reason why this particular person is now Roman Catholic. He appears to be saying he was challenged by the experiences of other people. I submit that a person like this is susceptible to be converted to almost anything. Rather, when he was a Reformed person, he should have been instructed to compare his experience to what the Word of God says, and conform his life to how God desires and instructs a Christian to live.
8. The Roman Catholic blogger states, "So the more times I empathize with a parable of Jesus am I being manipulated too? Or can a story be a way to help us relate to the truth?" Once again, my critic confuses "story" with "conversion story." Mr Lim presented his personal conversion story, not simply a story. The parables of Jesus are not personal conversion stories, they are the word of God, the ultimate standard of truth.
9.The Roman Catholic blogger states, "Sometimes a cigar is just a cigar Mr. Swan. People like conversion stories." Indeed, people do like to be entertained by a winning account of... almost anything. As I stated in my aomin entry: "For every Joshua Lim, there's someone "converting" to "something" somewhere out in the world. There's people that find the "fullness" of the truth in Orthodoxy as opposed to Romanism. There are people who become Muslims. There are people who become Mormons. They may even have compelling stories. They may even be former Roman Catholics. One of the ironies about conversion stories are those folks that continue having them. Take the ex-poster child for Catholic Answers, Gerry Matatics. He certainly loved to tell his story. Simply go back and listen to his debates with Dr. White. He'd tell that story every chance he could get. He'd even stay late into the night to tell it again and again. Now, go ask Karl Keating why Mr. Matatics is no longer endorsed by Catholic Answers. Similarly, how do I know that some of the current CTC stars aren't going to keep having a new conversion story? As Reformed people, if you want an infallible conversion account, you won't find such an item on the CTC blog, you'll find it in the pages of sacred Scripture." You see, David, you folks are using subjective experiences as evidence for the validity of a theological worldview. If your positive experience proves that Roman Catholicism is true, then any subjective positive experience can prove... just about anything.
10. The Roman Catholic blogger states, "And yes, being able to relate to someones thinking through a true life story of their experience is a great way to communicate. Is this really news? Think of the parable of the Good Samaritan. This story does exactly what you criticize! In this story we find Jesus is 'attempting to provoke you to question the validity of your own experience." Jesus uses a story to make us think about the question of "who is our neighbor". It is a very effective story! Was Jesus being "manipulative"? Is it true that "The more times you can empathize with [the Good Samaritan] story, the more you're being manipulated'?" Besides once again confusing a story with a conversion story, Mr. Meyer confuses the infallible Word of God with personal subjective Roman Catholic conversion stories. The Word of God is indeed the standard by which a person should be convicted of sin and exhorted to Godliness. A Roman Catholic conversion story is not such a standard. Those stories are to be scrutinized by an infallible standard. When they are, they fall quite short. They deny the sole infallible authority of the Scriptures and they promote a different Gospel.
11. The Roman Catholic blogger states, "If Reformed theology is true, James Swan has absolutly nothing to fear from these conversion stories." I don't recall anywhere stating I fear Roman Catholic conversion stories. Rather, my blog entries have simply pointed out the apologetic methodology being practiced by a many modern-day Roman Catholics. In this sense, it is no different than presenting materials on how Jehovah's Witnesses or Mormons proselytize.
12. The Roman Catholic blogger states, "Nobody is going to convert to Catholicism because they are jealous of someones story." But yet, we have your words above about how influential particular stories were in your own multiple conversions. Based on your words, it's within the realm of possibility that you were indeed jealous of their experiences and wanted what they had. This may be why you've had repeated significant paradigm shifts. You're seeking an experience someone else has had rather than seeking the infallible truth of the Scriptures. Now, you've had your own conversion experience, and advertise it so others can read it. Perhaps you fit the very description of the sort of person I described in the opening paragraph of this very blog post.
13. The Roman Catholic blogger states, "Have a bit of respect for peoples intelligence. Instead of accusing people at CTC of manipulation perhaps give them the benefit of the doubt that they are trying to help people. If, I repeat IF they are trying to help people... then they are not manipulating people." If the CTC folks have as their target audience Reformed people, and if they are presenting a different infallible authority and a different Gospel other than that described in the major Reformed confessions, then the CTC folks would not be "trying to help people."
14. The Roman Catholic blogger states, "They might be wrong, and the pope might be the antichrist, but it ain't manipulation. Likewise I don't think your boss James White is being manipulative when he asks Catholics to question their beliefs about salvation or the Church. I know he does these things out of a love for the truth." Dr. White does not present conversion story after conversion story. Rather, he sticks to theological and historical facts. Within Reformed circles, there is not a tendency to write about how one became a Calvinist. Sure, we talk about it sometimes. But it is not a primary tool of evangelism, nor are our testimonies a key method of directing people toward the “fullness of truth”. Rather, when one explains the basics of Reformed theology, Bibles are open and pages are flipping. What happened to me really doesn’t matter. Rather, It’s about “what are you going to do with the clear teachings of Scripture?” “Do you see that you bring nothing to Christ and that salvation is the result of His mercy on an undeserving sinner?”
15. The Roman Catholic blogger states, "Why does Mr. Swan have to resort to ad hominems though? Well if I wanted to throw one out there myself and try to get into his head like he seems to want to get into others heads... I would say he is secretly intrigued by these stories. Perhaps a bit insecure about his theology. Perhaps he wakes up at night in a cold sweat with the smell of incense in his nostrils and Gregorian chant in his ears... pope Benedict XVI beckoning him with that humble smile he has... holding out the Eucharist. Or perhaps that little story was trying to get too much into James' head and a bit over the line." As I've posited about your experience above, such a personal comment about me is fair game, and I'll take no offense. I'll simply just say that you are completely wrong.
A few final points need to be made. I don't claim to be the clearest writer, or even a good writer. I do assume though that I'm clear enough that people will get the basic point. For the sake of Mr. Meyer, my recent aomin entry attempted to point out that ultimately Roman Catholic converts are entirely individualistic and subjective, all the while criticizing their former Protestant churches for being individualistic and subjective. They often criticize Protestants for having subjective interpretations of the Bible, while at the same time they have a subjective interpretation of Roman Catholicism. In fact, the very means by which Mr. Lim arrived in Rome were the individual and subjective opinions of fallible sources, as interpreted by... Joshua Lim.
Roman Catholic conversion stories are often propped up with a facade of epistemological certainty, as opposed to the alleged blueprint for anarchy Protestantism they came from. Ultimately, you and the other batch of ex-Reformed churchman made a fallible subjective decision to join the Roman church. For every time one of you folks says something like, "How do you know which is the true church?" "How do you know which books are supposed to be in the Bible?" "How do you know what the correct interpretation of the Bible is?" There are similar questions that can just as easily be asked of you:
1. When the Roman Catholic apologist asks, “How do you know your private interpretation of the Bible is correct over against the private interpretation of every other denomination?,” we should respond by asking a question of our own: “How do you know that your private interpretation of Roman documents is correct over against the private interpretation of other Roman Catholics?”
2. When the Roman Catholic apologist asks, “how can you be certain that you are in the truth since all you have to go on is your own fallible private judgment that your church is right?,” we should counter with a similar question: “How can you be certain that you are in the truth since all you have to go on is your own fallible private judgment that Rome is right?”
3. When the Roman Catholic apologist asks, “How do you know you’ve picked the right denomination?, we should respond by asking, “How do you know you’ve picked the right infallible interpreter?”
4. When the Roman Catholic apologist insists that the principle of Sola Scriptura has resulted in 25,000 denominations, we should in turn insist that the principle of Scripture plus an infallible interpreter has resulted in an even greater number of religious cults.
Source: Eric Svendsen, , Upon This Slippery Rock: Countering Roman Claims to Authority [New York: Calvary Press, 2002] 65-66.